Five Stages of the brain
Break away? The unwitting question in my mind as the pandemic soared. To uproot and upend. To beat the next split-second life-changing moment. Or wait hoping that no change will come?
Restart.
Unwitting change did come, as my mind wound itself around itself, step by idle step down this five-step path.
Here’s what I thought. Or what I think I thought, as I fought for life and found the Highve.
C(ursed)
“You told us you weren’t afraid to die
Stop, feel, take it in. Change is here.
The “news” is real, and not altogether new. The body aches, the breath struggles.
I am part of the system now, and my brain is freaking out.
STAGE ONE
O(racle)
“If you could see where I've been
You'd touch the hand that's touching sin”
Lasting peace or fleeting freedom? The body rests while the mind races. But it’s no mirage. I’ve found my oasis again.
Memories trickle back and I feel alive in my skin. But change isn’t over. It’s bright, and shining, and beckoning.
STAGE TWO
V(ital)
Fresh air outside, and fresh pain in my chest. Change is still changing, but the past isn’t all behind. It looks like rain as I crawl out of my skin. I’m soaked, and not a single drop of gold.
In my mind’s eye, I see the brighter lights. The Code is open. Change has come to collect.
STAGE THREE
I(lluminated)
“And a new day will dawn
For those who stand long”
In my mind’s eye, I see the crack in the sky. The High Light Entity has arrived. I’m leaving the past behind.
I’m pushing through, out of the womb, like the Highves from the combs. The sun is shining, the energy is flowing, it feels amazing.
My brain thinks it has won the war, but this one battle is barely over yet. No looking back.
STAGE FOUR
D(IVINE)
A light skyward to the field rise claimant to freedom”
Molecular structure, rage of energy, all gears in perfect sync. Unstoppable
The tides are strong, and it might be rough sailing, but I have the Captain’s mind.
Change is a foregone conclusion. Rebirth came, and with it the time and patience to watch myself growth. The Mind is Here, NOW.”
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STAGE FIVE
EL ConQuistaD’or
New York City
2021
